Or not. Hahaha. I’m asking myself if I want to treat this as a diary, or something less personal. Most likely the latter. How cool am I, knowing the difference between the former and the latter. So clever. Reading what I wrote is already nauseating me. I should just stick to thinking..
So I’m a pretty critical person. Of things. People. Situations. And I’m trying not to. And I’ll succeed. I also started running everyday. Reading this makes me sound shallow. I should just write and not read what I wrote. Then I’ll be able to get a legitimate thought on this. Noones going to read this.. so here it goes
There are two sides in me. I’m really a walking contradiction in every sense of the word. And I try not to be. But if I try not to be wouldn’t that make me inauthentic? It’s hard to explain..
For example, one day I’ll be a chill guy, not overthinking things and just living. The next day.. or hour for that matter I’ll change. I’ll be an asshole OVERthinking things and contemplating my next breath, step and word. Like I said earlier I’m a critical person, with me being on top of the list. And then writing this, the whole ‘don’t take yourself serious’ mantra most sane people live by is circulating around my head. But I guess that’s not a motto everyone should live by.. right? This is just a trainwreck.
I always thought people who wrote blogged about themselves were shallow and stupid. Guess I’m one of them. :D